Christmas coming!!! it also means that we r 2gether for 2 yrs le.....'clap' congrate! spider wanted me to choose a x'mas gift....he wants to buy me a big teddy bear,i dun wan...wat do i want???a x'mas tree...haha...i lurve u dear....thanks for the 2 yrs...i really happy....thk for doting me and tells me u lurve me too cuz i 'm unique from other!!!Thank you

I saw my ex-best frenz got a bf,dunno why i feel weird weird de.i think i have seen that guy before but jux can't remember where have i seen him.The guy said he will luv her forever,but dunno why somehow i dun believe.Shld i believe that they will be forever?i dunno.i think i may be envious of them...But, shld i be envious of them when i have spider with me all along for more than 1 year and 8 mths? I feel that i am very bad cuz i feel that he won't be with her forever...Dunno why i feel this way,jux have a strong feeling about this.
Bad Katherine :(

No picture. I dun wan to Put. Feel like i am a loser who is going around to harm people.
i not purposely want to do thing badly. i'm Sorry. feeling very miserable inside my heart. my mum went to the temple and pray for me,the 'qian1' say i am having lots and lots of worries days and nights, if this continue,i will have misfortune. Sometime i cannot say that don't believe the god,he was correct to what i am facing now. Worries, tons and tons of worries.
i cry many times le...sometime i jux keep knocking my head on hard thing. So scare that friendship maybe ruin, so no matter what happen, i jux keep quiet even if i am not happy.
please, can someone advise me how what to do??? Help me please!

Yesterday, 29th of June...Spider asked me 'do i hate him?'.

He asked for my hand, he asked me will i marry him and be his wife and we will walk down the road forever....i say no...to him....But to say the truth, deep inside my heart,i felt so touched.

To conclude, he proposed to me.

To...those who will be reading this blog. Just wanna tell all of u that i am not someone who just love my bf''s money!!! to the person who say that, i had forgive u for wat u had said but pls take note that if u don want ppl to say the same thing to u,pls stop doing that....Thanks for reading!

i feel that i shld do something good to my frenzs...now i am still thinking of wat to do...

i wish my birthday i can go and walk along the Singapore River or sea...i have this urge of going to the beach...i love the calm feeling....i have too much troubles in my mind...Happy Birthday....,to myself.

very excited to go back school!!! Miss all of the guys in my class....but keep feeling that sth is missing....Spider had gone back....not here anymore...he bought me a phone....but i still feel so sad...esp saw couples walking pass me...

i am now thinking this semester,i hope i can have a group who is willing to do projects with me!i hate the feeling having to go around asking ppl if they want me to be in their group....

See U guys in class!!!

See this Mr bean??? i always feel like i look like mr bean....not on look but on the way people look at me...sometime i love the quietness around me when no one is with me..i am always by myself...just like bean,his only best frenx which i believe is only the bear which he always bring along. i hope people can regard me as their best frenz....as i really regard everyone around me as their friends.

i am envious of Hoyan,his stead is always by her side no matter where she goes.i suddenly love the feeling when i am working in Sheng Siong,spider is around me all the time....!!! Although we were working in the different deparment,but i love the feeling to know that he is by my side. i always see hoyan and Guohao holding hands in the school,so envious...not that spider never hold my hands or dote on me....i must admit that spider dote on me very much(that is wat all my frenz say...),he let me do the thing i want to do...but,nowadays i realise that this is not the relationship i want...i miss the days when we first together,i miss the first dating where we went bugis,first holding hands at first date,i miss the day when my heart pump very fast when he first kiss me in the cinema at bugis...but now...i can't find the atmosphere anymore!!!i never feel my heart pump very fast when he hold me or kiss me...i just feel that there is no chemisty in us.sometime i always wonder that is spider just like a 'kor kor' to me or i always regard him as my boyfrenz...someone tell me pls???

i 17 going to be 18 le...i have grow up le...i want to find Bi Xia back...i miss the days she understand me....i had ask Zhi Yan for advise...he asked me to fllow my heart...Ben also...i had msg her...but in my heart i still worry that she wont answer me... actually, i really cherish ppl around me...Just to sae a word to my dear friend: " i'm sorry"

My class look like we are being divided into 2 gangs....haiz....i not in any of the gangs pls....i want frenzs,not gangs

I saw an old lady selling tissue paper at the bus stop near SP,i want to buy from her but my spider stopped me...i dunno why i will cry whenever i saw poor ppl like the old lady...i am emotional...i am mad...i just want everyone to live in peace and they won't have to worry abt money...i want the places i go are all 'poor ppl' 'free',i want everyone around me to live happily...

i love spider,therefore,i maybe will going to break with my spider. My relatives all don like him, same as my parents...i am lying to him that i will marry him if i grow up...but,everyone know that we wont be having the happy ending(which i always want with my spider)...i hope he would find someone who will really marry him and love him...i cant give him proise that i will make him happy...he always want to protect me that seem harm to me..."spider, i have grow up le...i think i can protect myself...so,pls leave me..."
Pls leave me before i regret,thanks for doting on me,i love the feeling when u dote on me but it's the time i shall let u go...let u find someone who really can give u happiness,someone who her parents love u as their son...pls go...this is the only thing i can return ur love on me...i'm sorry...